perception of work

i came to realize that i'm that type of worker who works, until the job for the day is completed. maybe this is just for the industrial training and i'm taking things lightly so i don't care much about the pay and overtime stuff. but the fact is, i want to complete the things before i go home.

to see the other colleagues, especially the permanent employees (the R&D engineers) work until way past office hour, i feel uneasy to leave without completing my job. hence my cubicle mates says that i'm hardworking and working overtime. the truth is, i just wanna finish my task.

and i can't understand how people do not give all they have in work. like in the teaching profession, some teachers who taught me before would just go into class and ask us to buat kerja sendiri. even worst, some would just buy MCs and don't go to school at all! i feel guilty whenever i'm free. it's like taking their pay without contributing anything. a parasite perhaps? but then again, maybe it's just for this indurstrial training period. maybe everyone is busy with their tasks and it's just not nice to slack off.

i hope i'll still be in one piece after this training. i can already feel the tension building. there had been just a new release, and there'll sure be alot of work to be done...